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  • Author : PeppiPatty
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01 May 2015 02:47 AM
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Hi @Aonaran,

Hi, thanks for message, something to get my teeth into .....I really should re write this message because I'm going to write about a dream I had last night.....
Yes, I went to a Presbyterian church, it was okay...I haven't been back and will probably go to a Catholic Church this Sunday, where my Mum goes.....

I read your message with interest. I feel like I'm also going through a very little of what your thinking, don't know......
once I re read and read your message, your describing words are interesting.....
Sad and doughy
Constant slog
Poor old
This is not what your existence is, to you during the day...it might feel but oh, you went to see that film with Sean Penn,,,,,,your 6,5" and a little old lady led you out. You must have shown a beautiful fragile side of you that maybe.....you might not notice?? and you wrote about it straight after writing about deaths and harshness....it's always interesting what people write AFTER what they say first hey??? :0)

ille write about that in a sec but first
can I write about my dream i had last night?? I dreamt about this home I used to live in when a teenager and my Mum and me Had started up a children's shop together. so, upstairs in this beautiful old home that we used to live in, my Mum and me were selling gorgeous children's books and clothes. It was
Christmas and my Mum was sewing beautiful fancy costumes to give to the children as extra gifts if they come into the shop, it was Christmas, our shop was really wonderful. but my Dad , my step dad was hanging around ( I didn't see him) and a dog who kept on poohing throughout the home so my job, I didn't want to bother Mum, she was busy with the shop and getting compliments .......was picking up all the pooh left by the dogs. It was easy to pick up, throw away and there was a lot of it. anyway, whenever I had a break, I would fly ( yes, I could fly) around with a child to give them a thrill and I was also working.

The home, the details of the home and the beautiful clothes were just wonderful and cheery. I usually wear pastel stuff and earthy colours but these colours were all rich greens and reds and also.....'holly hobby,' type clothes but every so often, IDE have to stop and pick up all the dogs pooh..
then I woke up.....

It feels like I'm picking up all that shit because that the mess the stalker I have is in my life.
I have a new beginning with me Mum.

I have a new but slightly unhinged relationship with my brothers.

and I will write, about you, you @Aonaran, it feels like your getting your mind right too. that 'not for politics...." You feel that your life is empty but honey.........look how much you are processing, you have the enourmous amount of compassion that an elderly lady sees.
what does....' And the thought that it will end before I've somehow got any runs on the board of which I can be proud..........for almost all of us.)"

The deaths in Indonesia were terrible. the deaths were also a political statement can you respond on that statement? It's amazing that the men have someone like you who can feel your good compassion for.
I haven't seen dead man walking....don't want to go through that angst. My family, we all went to see one of Sean Penn films in California, think it was called 21..... Or something.....we all pulled faces through it......I can't cope with too much Sean Penn angst. wonderful amazing actor he is though.

your one treasure @Aonaran. Love reading your messages. I always hope in a little way, I contribute to the forums.....tired always, exhausted from fighting the normalcy of life.......does anything make any difference that I'm around. Probably not.

Cheers, hope you write soon,
Anne

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